Andy you are such an awsome friend & motivator & moral booster & wise tutor 
so grateful for ur continuous support & patience, it makes a difference no matter how small.
big change and the unknown are scary. two big unknowns that are road blocking my progress are How do I look for a new place to live (millions of options) and How do I buy & pay for it? (paperwork, morgages, financial jibberish).
yes I luv doing what I'm good at doing with passion. when I have a task target, I will focus and work on it non stop till it's complete & satisfactory (ocd closure?)
overcoming the evil -ve voice is hard to shake off, tis why I'm procrastinating abit and just doing stuff I feel good about, to get that high & boost moral I rekindle who I was and what I luved before all this 3D app startup drama crap (going back to old school).
aye +ve reward & mindset & confidence is often ignored over the illusional money, but thankfully I saved enough emergency savings to let me forget bout the worries & have more fun to recharge / refuel my fire. I believe that once I overcome this road block and successfully got a new job I'm passionate about and living by myself with oppurtunity and stable finance, I'll be back on form and stronger.
